Starry Night

 Vincent van Gogh (1853-1890) had an eccentric personality and unstable moods, suffered from recurrent psychotic episodes during the last 2 years of his extraordinary life, and committed suicide at the age of 37.  Don McLean wrote the song "Vincent" in memory of Van Gogh.  The words are very meaningful and I think those who suffer from mental illness can find a deeper meaning and understanding of his life.  Van Gogh painted Starry Night while in an asylum in Saint-Remy in 1889.
Listen to the song below.

Starry Starry Night

My Current Read

I find solace in reading books that help me understand answers to difficult questions, books that give me hope in times of darkness, and books that somehow bless me with light in the middle of my darkness.  This is a book my dad gave me today.  I am looking forward to reading it.  

The title draws me in.

 BUT IF NOT

WHEN BAD THINGS THREATEN TO DESTROY GOOD PEOPLE

 JOYCE AND DENNIS ASHTON

"Faith is something greater than ourselves that enables us to do what we said we would do.  To press forward when we are tired or hurt or afraid.  To keep going when the challenge seems overwhelming and the course is uncertain."

President Gordon B. Hinckley 

CELEBRITY BIPOLARS

Bi-Polar Bird

Bi-Polar Bear

Crash and Burn

I get really frustrated that I can't handle stress like most people.  One glitch can send me into a tailspin that is difficult to recover from.  I am blessed to have a husband that is so capable of taking care of the situations that I can't seem to handle.  I hate not being strong enough to carry my end of the load but the bipolar takes over at certain times and the triggers take me down hard.  I feel a tremendous amount of guilt over the fact that my family is so affected my illness.  I  was in an plane crash when I was twelve years old and the fear, pain, and anxiety that I experience now are worse than that actual crash was for me.  Doesn't make sense.  Thank goodness I can recover from the "crash and burns" much quicker than I have been able to in years past.  I feel thankful for the progress we have made in learning how to live with the bipolar in the best way that we can.  Many, many thanks to my husband and kids.  I literally couldn't do this without their love and support.

Hope...or not

Some days I'm just not feeling it.

Random Anonymous Quote

"I have BPD, PTSD and ADD. lt's like "Wheel of Unfortunate" and I don't want to buy a 'D'."

 

The Bipolar Express